So tired of being tired. My kids are growing and changing so much everyday, but I feel like I can't enjoy it much. Despite all of Judah's cute words and half sentences, all I think about is how long my nap might be that day. I just can't keep up. My body doesn't do well with elevated hormones.
I am trying to tough it out, but I am not being very tough. I am continuing to breastfeed, despite it being the most likely cause of my suffering, because I know that I am investing in Taylor's future. It was the same story with Judah. I knew it was the best for him, and I would regret not continuing long enough. It really is not that much time considering all the time they will be living here; it is really a small sacrifice. I wish I was one of those moms that could be pregnant, breastfeed, and tote a few kids to soccer practice all at the same time without it even phasing me. Unfortunately, that is not my lot in life. It is hard to enjoy my children when my only comfort is rest.
But anyway, here are a few anecdotes about what the kids are up to.
Taylor has really hit her stride the last few days. She has begun to reach for toys and is more interactive with us. She still doesn't laugh a whole lot. On a recent visit to see Ricky's grandparents in Chehalis, we discovered that Grandma Nana is the only one who can make her really REALLY laugh. I will get a chuckle now and then, but only in the early morning, and only a few. We are still working on that. I have been very adamant about her wearing her bows everyday, otherwise she looks like a boy. She is very cute in bows. She is sleeping 11-12 hours at night now. I wasn't letting her go much past a 9 hour stretch at first because I was nervous about my milk supply, but love of sleep soon won that battle. She is teething right now causing her to be irritable, but other than that, she's becoming more enjoyable to have around.
Judah is talking talking talking non-stop. He is easily putting together 5-6 word sentences which is pretty incredible, although he has a lot to learn about articles and prepositions etc. He is also getting better playing by himself which has been quite a help to me (when he actually DOES play by himself.) This morning he has run around the house yelling "Look at all the bubbles!" and "Want some more bubbles!" One of his favorite things to say is, "Me to hold you?" which we have tried to correct many times, to no avail. He was playing out on the deck and told Bailey (the cat) "G'bye, Bails! See ya later! Have fun!" as he pretends to leave for work like his daddy. Last night I heard him still awake in his bed an hour and a half after his bedtime. I brought him back to my bed and read a few books before sending him off to bed again. He's such a good kid.
Now if only I could get someone to watch the kids.