Saturday, October 31, 2009

Darn T3chnology

Our home computer died. It won't even boot up.

*moment of silence*

We have been needing a new computer for some time now, but of course it would break when we can absolutely not afford to get a new one. Because of our house being listed, and because I am no longer working etc, we are on an exceedingly tight budget right now. So I have to use my hubby's work laptop every night. It's kinda rough being home all day with no internet. I only ever used it for checking email and simple stuff like that. I don't even have a facebook account. Yet somehow it makes you feel helpless. Or I may think to myself Judah has a rash breaking out on his face, could it be an allergy to beans? But I can't go google... or excuse me, BING it to find an answer. I just have to wonder and then do nothing.

It's sad how much we rely on technology. You come to the same realization when the power goes out. Suddenly, there's nothing to do. God forbid you have to read a book by candlelight, or pull out a board game, or TALK. The horror. Yet we always have the fondest memories of when the power goes out.

So I am getting by, but it sucks.

In other news, Judah, my mom, and I all went to the pumpkin patch last Saturday. It was a ton of fun! Judah was so cute trying to pick up pumpkins, and riding in the wheelbarrow. I would post some pics, but I say again, the computer is dead. And last night, Ricky and I went to Jet City Improv to watch "Twisted Flicks." It was fun, and I even won tickets for next month's show.

And the most important announcement of all... only 55 days until Christmas!

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Convincing Myself that I am a Good Mother

Convincing myself that I am a good mother is not the easiest thing to do. When the day goes great, and Judah is behaving, and I have dinner ready on time, I feel like a good mother. But not all days are like that. Some days I am stressed, and I am yelling "No no!" at Judah for the 12th time that minute, and the laundry is stacked up. On those days, it can be hard to convince myself that I am doing a good job.

I do the best I can, and I guess that's all I can do. Do you ever have that nagging feeling that you should be doing something more? Maybe it has to do with all the media and pressure that's put on us as moms to do things a certain way. No, I don't feed my kid a vegetarian, or strictly organic diet. Would that be good for him? Yes. But do I put that much effort into it? No. I am told by my parenting magazine that I should brush his teeth twice a day, but so far, since he got his teeth, I have brushed them once.

Sometimes, I know that I am giving in to him because I am tired. For instance, Judah is not allowed to play in the office unless a parent is in there, but sometimes I just let it go. I am inconsistent. I am going to ruin his entire life? The website said I will. He shouldn't suck him thumb or else he will ruin his teeth! He shouldn't wear those shoes! Don't let him climb on that! He shouldn't eat that! He should play outside everyday! You should use flashcards! You should teach him sign language! Don't let him put that in his mouth! He's too skinny!

There are statistics for everything. If you spank them, then you are teaching them that violence is the answer and they are 20% more likely to be involved in domestic violence.* If you don't feed your kids organic food, they are 13% more likely to get cancer.** If you don't eat dinner together at the table, then your kids won't have a good vocabulary.*** Blah Blah Blah! Everything effects your child's future in some way, so how do you know exactly what can be good for them at any given moment?

*I made this up
**I also made this up
***this is kinda true, kinda

I just want to do what is best for him. But how can we keep up with all this information and proper learning milestones? It's impossible. Some things I could do better, but what is worth it, and what is not? All that you can do is the best you can, and teach them what is right and wrong, and trust God to do the rest. Pray for your children often, because the Holy Spirit is the One who can show you how to teach them.

I think I am a good mother.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Cinderelly, Cinderelly

Night and day, it's Cinderelly.

Our house is listed, which means that someone can call any day of the week to come look at our home. That means that things need to be immaculate every. single. day. Geez. It's been 2 weeks and I am starting to become exhausted of cleaning up the entire place daily. On the one hand, it's good that we are keeping the house clean, but on the other hand, I am exhausted from cleaning up after a toddler.

Not sure how long we can keep this up. Good thing that I am at home now, otherwise this would be close to impossible.

I know it will be worth it if we are able to sell. If you want to check out our listing, you can view it here.

And prayers are always appreciated, both for a buyer, and also for my sanity.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Ricky keeps bothering me to blog. Geez, do you think time grows on trees?! Do you think that I am just at home all day with nothing to do?!?! Oh, well anyway, I am blogging just for you.

I have a bunch of pictures that I have been behind on since our USB cables went missing mysteriously. These are pics of our short and sweet Cali trip, and various others of our family having fun and being attacked by stuffed animals.

October is going to be a busy month for us. More busy than the summer, which is strange. Good thing I don't have to go to work again EVER! So far, we have several things to do each Saturday for the rest of the month. I think I need a day off.

Here, Ricky, here's my post