I was sitting here in a bad mood, when it suddenly occurred to me that I have nothing to be in a bad mood about. So instead, I am going to write about all the great things going on in my life, because there is much more of that. I also don't want to fall back into my old habit of only writing when I am in a bad mood.
I have this journal that I got years and years ago. I must have been 10 or 11, and when I read through it, I just laugh because I would only write an entry when I was having a bad day. So the whole journal is dedicated to the bad days in my life since I was 11. When I started this blog, I vowed never to do that again. There is just too much goodness in life to waste my time focusing on the few minor bad things.
So what am I grateful for today? I was grateful to get my son up at the break of dawn. Normally when Ricky or I go get him from his crib in the morning, he's awake, and who knows how long he's been there being quiet and thoughtful. Since I was up early for work, I leaned over his crib while he was still sleeping, and I just stared at him for a minute or two, not wanting to steal him from his sugar plums, or whatever it is that baby's dream about. I was not sure if I had the heart to wake him, but as I was pondering what to do, he opened his eyes. He saw me and did a big stretch. Perfect timing, Judah.
I am also grateful for my husband, who had an unusual amount of energy this morning, most likely because he knew that he could go back to bed. I was sleeping through my alarm, and he was tickling me, and rubbing my back, trying to wake me up. It worked. He nudged me a few times, and that was enough to pull me out of that half dream state, and I could have got up, but I liked him touching me, so I pretended to still be out of it so he wouldn't stop. It was a nice way to wake up. Although, it's not always that nice. Usually I am thinking Ok, buddy, touch me one more time and I'll pull your toe nails off! I'll get up when I am good and ready! I guess I am grateful that that was not my mood this morning.
I am grateful for my decaf-double- short-nonfat-white-chocolate-mocha that I get Saturdays. I have been good about not running out for an espresso every morning, so on Saturdays it's my special treat. I also appreciate the fact that I enjoy it so much more when it's not routine. It makes me feel better when I come into the 50 degree warehouse with a hot espresso. Mmmmm.
I am grateful for homemade dinners. It was hard getting used to eating out less often, but now I am enjoying it. The only down side it that there are more dishes to do, but hey, the food is great. I am also happy about our new toaster oven that we got. It's also been a lifesaver since our microwave died about a week ago. I thought we'd have caved, and bought one by now, but shockingly we are getting by without it (barely). I like cooking, and as I start to get into the rhythm of cooking for a family, I am getting more adventurous and creative. It makes me feel more like a mom too.
I am grateful for my family in general. A hard working hubby, and a growing baby. Hubby is busy at work so that I can stay at home. A baby who got his first two teeth this week, and is eating solids now, and had his first "big boy" poop. I am grateful that I get to see them a lot, rather than having to deal with night shifts and paying off thousands of dollars or credit card debt. I am glad that I can look forward to going home today, rather than dread it. I know many people live like that, but I am not one of them.
I am grateful that the work day is almost over.