Thursday, April 19, 2007

Proverbs 18:21 (NLT)

I am so grieved at the things that can come out of a person's mouth. I don't understand how people can speak so viciously against one another! And the worst part is that they can get an entire room to join them in an incredibly degrading, ruthless, and brutal attack on someone else. It is such a hard thing to listen too and take a stand against when you are the only one who disagrees with the majority. How can people hate so much?

A guy at work got fired today. Well, we're not sure if he was fired or quit. I opt to think he quit, but everyone else agrees that he must have been fired since he's a %@$# and a @*!&^!*?%$. Of course I wouldn't say those things about anyone, but it hurt me to hear them say those things. I really liked him. He was highly intelligent, and he had a family that he loved very much, and he would always tell me about his daughter and his goals and why he wouldn't settle being an average person. But because of those things, people hated him. I admit that he could have handled a lesson in humility, but that was no reason to spread hateful comments about him.

There was a pattern that I noticed. People either loved him, or hated him. Whether they liked him or not was not important to me. I don't like my soon-to-be-supervisor, but I still respect her and do my best to be kind to her. Since when does the Bible say that it's OK to talk bad about people and hate people because they don't suite your preferences?

It's been hard for me being outside my Christian bubble. Even in high school, I don't know if I had ever heard such evil speech that I heard today. It made my soul groan and shrivel.

Whoever is reading this, if you are born again, I challenge you to consider carefully every word that comes from your mouth. You will be held accountable for every single one. We are the light of the world, and if we continue to speak vile words, even words that "aren't that bad," we are just as bad as any other person who cares for nothing but themselves.

"The tongue can bring death or life; those who love to talk will reap the consequences."

Bamba- I am so sorry for the things that were said about you today. Please forgive those that spoke against you, and forgive me for not doing more to stop it. Those words are not who you are. I wish you well in life, and I will pray for you. Keep God first, and never settle for second best. I hope to see you again.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

I would just like to say that I am very sorry to Ricky for getting on his case when he didn't blog for months at a time. I am truly sorry.

I never realized that when you have a full time job that demands your attention all day, your blog is simply the last thing on your mind. This whole not having tons of free time is really new to me. Go figure. I guess I'm just growing up. But seriously, I will try to blog more.

So, the new job is not so new anymore, at least it doesn't feel that way. I'm definitely not viewed as "the new girl", and I have been doing a lot more tasks than I was hired for. Most of the office stuff I do can get done quickly when I really focus, which unfortunately can make my day drag on much longer. It is not uncommon to hear Rosemary asking for more to do around the office, especially on a really slow day (like today).

My very favorite and my very least favorite part about my job, by far, is the fact that I am the only outspoken Christian in the entire vicinity. Let me explain. It is bad, obviously, because it can feel really lonely at times when there is no one else there to support you, and you are the only one holding yourself to a higher standard. Higher standard meaning God's standard. There are many conversations that take place in the office that I don't even take part it, and any conversations that I do take part in, I am completely misunderstood. It can be difficult to get your point across without pointing to the Bible or God working in your life. If you say either of those two things, you're just crazy.

What I really don't understand is when people say how much they admire people with high standards, yet they won't do that themselves. Does that make any sense? I guess people do it all the time though. Dieting, punctuality, sobriety... when someone struggles with these types of things and overcome it, they are so admired, but only a small percentage will actually follow the example.

The good part about being the only Christian is that I have the chance to be an amazing example to those that are still in the dark, and hopefully shine as brightly as I can. It can be a heavy burden though, because I know that I have to really step up my act and be that shining light. The last thing I want to do is to blend in and be like everyone else. I need to be as much like Christ as I can. It has really been good for me, and I am trying to be better everyday by weed out all the things which needed to be fixed. Many I never noticed before.

So continues the life of the not so average working girl. I pray that my workplace will be impacted by Christ. I have to leave my mark in this world somewhere.